Ya’ll think this post is about relationships don’t you? Nope! It’s not. Ok, it might be. Somehow I always end up talking about boys. I can’t help it!
Anyhoo, so you know I’ve been trying to find my calling, my passion. I’ve been praying, meditating, reading, waiting, stressing, and all that. In the past year, it seems like the more I want something, the more I can be guaranteed I won’t get it. I told a friend that I think God has been trying to toughen me up because He’s been making things pretty hard for me. I told her I’m tough like a well-done steak. She said I’m more like jerky . . . beef jerky. She was exactly right; I’m beef jerky. That’s why I have to moisturize 🙂
I feel like God lifted the veil of protection that surrounded me and allowed the devil to get at me like he did Job (in the bible, people). Mmmmmm ok, I’ve been known to exaggerate from time to time so maybe I haven’t been going through what Job went through. (Poor Job had it sooooo bad). But, I have been struggling to find myself, to feel inspired, and to be happy. I would pray or just talk to myself and try to will myself to be content. Sometimes I could make myself. Other times I failed. I was just a little sad puppy.
Now that I’m on the other side of some of that sadness I’m a little clearer about things. I still don’t have all I want, but I have all I need. Cliché’? A little. But so true! Even in my down times, I’m good. If I can’t have all I want (it’s actually a pretty long list), I’ll be content to have exactly what I have. It’s enough. Not only is it enough, it’s more than some others have. Who ever promised me that all my dreams would come true on my timeline or that I wouldn’t have stumbling blocks along the way? Who told me that? Nobody! Not even the Lord. I’m cool with that. I really am. I’m happy to go through a few things to get to the good stuff.
Also, I’ve decided to have a little fun right now. I may be young, but I’m ready! (inner Beyonce coming out) Why not enjoy myself? I have to relish 26 because this time next year, I’ll be 27! That’s how that works, ya know. Every year, we get older. Every new day means that we’ll never get yesterday back. So, even if today sucks more than I expected, it’s all I got. Might as well enjoy it a bit. If I can’t have a seriously fabulous today, I’ll love the less-than-fabulous-today I’ve been blessed to see. If I can’t have the one I love, I’ll love the one I’m with.
So, the average Joe will work for a while. Heck, he might have to work forever. The good thing is that average Joe’s usually know how to change a flat tire, patch the roof, and come home every night. I’ll take it 🙂